Steve and I had the usual late night chat in YM (coz im working at night, as a webmaster ). Then he said that he is in the mood to create poems. And that i will not reply as he type these words. As i read each line that appears on my YM-window, my heart skip a beat!
And i would like to share his original compositions:

I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

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Love is like a lump of gold,
Hard to get, and hard to hold.
Of all the girls I've ever met,
You're the one I can't forget.
I do believe that God above,
Created you for me to love.
He chose you from all the rest,
Because he knew I would love you best.

I thought love was just a mirage of the mind,
it's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find.
But the day I met you, I began to see,
that love is real, and exists in me.

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I've made a vow, to no one but you
I pledge my love to forever be true
I'll take care of you and treat you right
I'll lay beside you all through the night
I'll feed you and clothe you and keep you warm
I'll hug you and kiss you and give shelter in the storm
I'll help you and guide you and clear a path
I'll protect you and shield you from an angry man's wrath
I'll listen to your problems help you solve them too
I'll make you a rainbow and let the sun shine through
I'll take your side even if you're wrong
Just to prove our love is strong
I'll plant you flowers and make them grow
They'll be a symbol of love that only we'll know
I'll whisper your name when no one is near
So low that only you can hear
You'll feel my love even if we're apart
You'll know that we are one in heart.

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On a summer's day , i fell in love and i'll never know just what it was that made me feel so darn to her
what the appeal that set my pulses so to race
when i gazed upon her face of one who was scarce but a child
yet even then, could drive me wild
i'll never know the how's & why's
i lost my heart to her Black eyes
i knew i'd found my perfect girl
how could i describe our love?
romantic love, all hearts and flowers.. No way to count the days and hours
spent in self-indulgent wishes and thoughts of long awaited kisses, of sweet embraces, tender sighs and gazing into love filled eyes..
Oh yes, it is that kind of love
Or, is it yet the love of passion
The ecstasy that knows no ration
That shuddering nerve-tingling feeling
The climax with your senses reeling
The wondrous joy when you discover
That sweet surrender to your lover
Oh yes, it's that kind of love too.
Or even yet a love that grows
One that cares and one that knows
That sees beyond the outer skin
Into the person deep within
That loves the spirit and the soul
The inner self that makes the whole
Built on trust and empathy
A love you know was meant to be
The love we share is all these things
A love that has no need of rings
A love you never need to doubt
A love I cannot live without
A love to last us all our days
A love I'll share with you always

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All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together, to never be apart.
No one else in the world can even compare,
You're perfect and so is this love that we share.
We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.
I promise to give you all I have to give, I'll do anything for you as long as I live.
In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you look at me I know we will last.
I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

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* I love you so much sweetheart ^_^

    I used to ask my bestfriend "So when you gonna have a bf?" (asking as though i have one, lol ). She answers "Im not Ready yet". Well, my friend neither do i. But then, it happened unexpectedly. In fact at those times, i dont want to believe in love anymore...

    So how to "gear-up" and be ready for love? for a relationship?.. For me, love comes when you least expect it. Its like one day the mailman knocks at your door and you just woke-up. You are alone in your house and you have no choice but to answer the door. I wonder what would be the reaction of the mailman the moment you open the door, lol.

    Anyways, I would like to share with you what Breachelle told me about love. She gave it to me in a form of a letter. And it goes like this:

For my dearest MJ,

These are the things i learned from love and love of my friends, I hope this inspires you.

When we think our past love, we may view it as a failure. But when we find new love, we view it as a teacher. Love doesn't have to come and end in cute surprises; it simply comes and ends unexpectedly.

When we think of all the pains we've been through, we often tell ourselves to move on because definitely it isn't our lost. Yes we do move on, but does it necessarilly  have to be somebody else's lost? Simply put - "his lost"? In falling out of love, it doesnt really matter who won or who lost. The experience is there to help us grow and teach us one of the most important things in loving --- maturity.

It could be his lost, and could be ours too. Its hard to accept but i guess we also have to ask ourselves, "what made me lost this battle?..  was i being unfair?.. didn't i love more?.."

My idealism never taught me to love trully and selflessly. Instead, it taught me to love 'carefully'. Because of idealism, I learned to choose whom i should open my heart to. At last, no man could ever hurt me again, not this time, since I am careful. But then, I thought my idealistic ways made me wiser and mature, but it does the opposite. It makes me weaker. I thought i was just being careful but no i was just being afraid.

How ironic. The more I take care of my heart, the lesser i know to really love. I guess we can only say we've matured if we're open to pain. We can never choose circumstances the same way we cannot choose whom our heart should beat for.

My friend told me: "Love doesnt have to be perfect for us to be happy. I love freely coz i trust my heart more than anything else."

The best love story is yourself. You choose the characters that should be involved and you choose the situations you wanted in. Sometimes though, some things are not meant to last and some are not even meant to start. So how do we know if its real or not? You've got the answer; YOU HAVE TO MAKE IT HAPPEN. Take chances on love and dont be afraid to get hurt. Dont build a wall in your heart; let them in, you need every circumstances there is to keep you strong.

True love? you will never know unless you give it a try.

Breachelle

In my own expererience, i met my bf the time when i dont want to believe in love anymore. Well, the first day we talked was just for friendship. But there was something different in him of all the guys i've talked before. On that first day we talked, i already like him even though i didnt see his picture. He only showed it to me 2 weeks after or so, the time when he already says "i love you" (aminin! lol).
But you know it didnt bother me at all and i dont know why. I just followed my heart, so hard for me to do but i tried and i did. Also i like him because i can see (i mean feel, since i didnt see him that time) in him my 'dream guy' (my knight in shining armor) - - i never thought he would exist..

Well thank God he exist, or else i'll end up choosing a guy who loves me that much even if i dont feel anything on him. I cant imagine what that life would be, if it happened --- i just dont want to be alone and lonely.

Anyways, i thank Breachelle not only for the letter but for being there to listen and 'advice' me. Of course i didnt forget my bestfriend, Carla. She is far from me now, but she is always there 'a text-away', always there to listen to my boring stories or my annoying problems. And last but not the least, for my Bf, Steve for coming into my life, for being patient, honest and sweet. Love yah all. ^_^

*And one more thing: BE YOURSELF. Dont try to pretend something you're not. (Even if you're "suplada" like me, hehe). I know someone out there likes you just the way you are. Still waiting? dont be tired and lose Hope. Everything will fall at the right place in God's time. Besides, its all worth waiting for.

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You're the only love I'll need

In my life you're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You're love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you oh

Chorus

I can't imagine me without you




*Dedicated to Steve. You gave me this song (mp3) and everytime i listen to it, i remember you. Thanks for all the love and care. "When i found you, im truly am blessed.." I love you..